This I Promise U

When the visions around you
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that’s around you
Are secrets and lies
I’ll be your strength
I’ll give you hope
Keeping your faith when it’s gone
The one you should call
Was standing here all along

And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
‘Til the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I’ve loved you forever
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart
(Give you my heart)
This is a battle we’ve won
And with this vow
Forever has now begun

Just close your eyes each lovin’ day
(Each lovin’, each lovin’ day)
And know this feeling won’t go away
(No)
‘Til the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

Over and over I fall
(Over and over I fall)
When I hear you call
Without you in my life, baby
I just wouldn’t be living at all

And I will take you in my arms
(I will take you in my arms)
And hold you right where you belong
(Right where you belong)
‘Til the day my life is through
This I promise you, baby

Just close your eyes each lovin’ day
(Each lovin’ day)
And know this feeling won’t go away
(No)
Every word I say is true
This I promise you

Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Ooh, I promise you

My love, here I stand before you
I am yours now from this moment on
Take my hand, only you can stop me shaking
We'll share forever, this I promise you

[Chorus]
And when I look in your eyes
All of my life is before me
And I'm not running anymore
'Cause I already know I'm home
With every beat of my heart
I'll give you my love completely
My darling, this I promise you

My love, I can feel your heartbeat
As we dance now closer than before
Don't let go, 'cause I could almost cry now
This is forever, I make this vow to you

[Repeat chorus]

My darling, this I promise you
My darling, this I promise you

it's in the silences,
The words you never say
I see it in your eyes,
It always starts the same way
It seems like everyone we know is breaking up
Does anybody ever stay in love, anymore?

I promise you,
From the bottom of my heart
I will love you till death do us part
I promise you as a lover and a friend
I will love you like i never love again
With everything i am

Ooh i see you look at me,
When you think i'm not aware
You're searching for clues,
Of just how deep my feelings are.
How do you prove the sky is blue, the oceans wide?
All i know is what i feel,
When i look into your eyes

I promise you,
From the bottom of my heart
I will love you till death do us part
I promise you as a lover and a friend
I will love you like i never love again
With everything that i am ooh yeah

Oh there are no guarantees
That's what you always say to me
But late at night i feel the tremble in your touch
Oh what i'm trying to say to you,
I never said to anyone i promise

I promise you,
From the bottom of my heart
I will love you till death do us part
(i do my darling i promise you)
I promise you as a lover and a friend
I will love you like i never love again

With everything i am i promise you,
From the bottom of my heart
I will love you till death do us part
( i love you i love you i love you i love you)
I promise you as a lover and a friend
I will love you like i never love again
With everything i am

You're everything i am oh yeah
With everything i am

Ku Merindu - Ella feat. Shah Song

Shah:
Ku merindu,
Merindu cinta yang tulus dari hatimu
Selalu ku impikan hidup bersamamu
Ku kan selalu menanti balasan cintamu

Ella:
Ku berjanji,
Berjanji mencintaimu sepenuh jiwaku
Ku tak akan mendustakan cinta kekasihku
Agar kau dapat menerima cintaku
Ku selalu,
merindu cintamu
Yang selalu ada di jiwaku

Chorus:
Aku tahu kau pun cinta
Tapi malu tuk berkata
Usah kau ragui cintaku
Ku tetap merindu

Aku tahu kau pun cinta
Tapi malu tuk berkata
Ku tunggu jawapan cintamu
Ku tetap merindu

Di saat ini hatiku rindu belaian cinta darimu
Ku harap kau merestui cinta dariku
Yang selalu setia menunggu dirimu

I'm Happy & Gracious

Today i'm not going to work bcoz' i've to send back my previous house's key.Luckily i managed to get back the key deposit money,rm15.So,this is my last time to be at the room where i've been living for 5 years.It has a lot memories,bad & sweet.I see it for the last time.I've a mix expression;sad to leave it but happy bcoz' now i'm having a new life at a new place which i can call home.
Evening i received a letter from spa.Wonder of wonder,it was a letter asked me to attend an exam;Peperiksaan Perkhidmatan skim 14.I tought i never get it bcoz' i've check in internet but my name didn't appear.It is on 05/04/2008.But the problem is the venue;smk pandan mewah,ampang.I tried to look for the location.It seems very far from my place.Erm,hopefully by that time my boss pay my salary.My fiance promised to send & accompany me there.

Semakan Keputusan Peperiksaan Khas Memasuki Perkhidmatan
Pegawai Tadbir dan Diplomatik

___________________________________________________________

No. Kad Pengenalan : XXXXXXXXXXXX
Nama Penuh : XXXXXX XXXXX XXXXXX

Tahniah! Anda telah LULUS Peperiksaan Khas Memasuki Perkhidmatan Pegawai Tadbir dan Diplomatik yang telah diadakan pada 16/02/2008.

Then he ask me to check the ptd exam result.Yesterday i've already check but no result yet.Today,it has been informed.Wonder oh wonder,i pass.I PASS!It was a shock bcoz' i didn't expect it at all.I'm not confident during the maths exam.I just 'tembak2' bcoz' i forgot the formula & the time is not enough.Thank goodness.Alhamdulillah.The most happiest person is my fiance bcoz' b4 this he's very confident that i will pass the exam.He gave me a .This mean,i owe him.After the exam,he confidently said that i'll pass it but i didn't.So he bet;if i pass,he wants to eat at kenny rogers & the bills are on me.I agreed.Luckily the bet was easy to fulfill.What if he asked a more expensive things?So,i've to fulfill my promise soonest,may be this weekend if i get my salary.

I'm amazed myself how could i possibly pass the exam whereas i'm confident my maths paper result was sucks.I answered all the question but more than 50% i 'tembak'.At that time,the moast important thing in my head,i answered all.But anyhow,i'm grateful for what Allah had grant me.I've study hard & now it has paid of.This is the 3rd time i've passed the ptd exam.I went to assesment centre once but i didn't attend the 2nd one bcoz' i'm npt confident i'll pass the test.Last year i'm supposed to attend the exam but i didn't bcoz' of unexpected things had happened.So this year i've a new resolution,i'm going to try my luck again.And this saturday i'm going to attend the perkhidmatan skim 14 exam.It was my 2nd time as the 1st time i received no interview even though i pass the exam.Hopefully this year my luck will change.Since this year i'm going to be 33-years-old,i've only 2 years more to try.The time is clicking .Now it's time to study.

Forgive & Forget

In the beginning in the days before time
The light was alive with the essence of power
And from that power were born beings
Who lived on the edge of eternity
And they spread their wings and soared through the ancient air
And the beating of their wings made the winds
And from the winds came the seas
And from the sea came the life of the earth
Nature's cast upon the sea
The winds of past of promise be
Waters deep and cunning
A scheme of sleep as lovers breathe
If you forgive me my ferocity
I won't forget your sweetness
Pull down the night
Lay it before me
Ratify my head with curses
Night recalls tranquility
A curtain falls and sets it free
Darkness calls eternity
Down silent halls the shadows flee
If you forgive me my ferocity
I won't forget your sweetness
Pull down the night lay it before me
Satisfy my head with curses
Forgive and forget
Forgive and forget
Forgive and forget
Fatal cast upon the sea
The winds of past of promise be
Waters deep and cunning
A scheme of sleep as lovers breathe
Forgive and forget
Forgive and forget
Forgive and forget

1. Forgiving is allowing another person to be human for faults, mistakes, or misdeeds. Forgetting is putting these behind you; they are no longer brought up and no longer remain a barrier to your relationship.
2. Forgiving is letting another know that there is no grudge, hard feelings, or animosity for any wrongdoing. Forgetting is the lack of further discussion, with no ongoing negative references to the event.
3. Forgiving is letting the other person know that you accept as genuine the remorse and sorrow for actions or words that hurt or disappointed you. Forgetting is promising that this deed, whether of omission or commission, will not be brought up again.
4. Forgiving is accepting the sincerity of penance, sorrow, and regret expressed over a grievous personal offense; making it sufficient to clear the air. Forgetting is your commitment to let go of anger, hurt, and pain over this offense.
5. Forgiving is giving a sign that a person's explanation or acceptance of blame for a destructive, hurtful, or painful act is fully accepted. Forgetting is the development of a plan of action between the two of you to heal the scars resulting from the behavior.
6. Forgiving is the highest form of human behavior that can be shown to another person. It is the opening up of yourself to that person to be vulnerable to being hurt or offended in the future, yet setting aside this in order to reopen and heal the channels of communication. Forgetting is equally as high a human behavior; it is letting go of the need to seek revenge for past offenses.
7. Forgiving is the act of love between you and a person who has hurt you; the bandage that holds the wound together long enough to heal. Forgetting is also an act of love; in rehabilitation therapy, helping the wounded return to a full, functional, living reality.
8. Forgiving is the God like gift of spiritually connecting with others, touching their hearts to calm the fear of rejection, quiet the sense of failure, and lighten the burden of guilt. Forgetting is the God like gift of spiritually touching others' hearts with the reassurance of a happy and full life with no fear of recrimination, remonstrations, or reminding of past offenses.
9. Forgiving is the act of letting go of temporary ill will, disappointment, or the disgust that arises from the break in your relationship. Forgetting is bridging this gap in the relationship, eventually strengthening it against such a break in the future.
10. Forgiving is an act of compassion, humanity, and gentleness by which you let another know that she/he is indeed a child of the universe upon whom a variety of graces and blessings have been showered and that current or past offenses need not be a barrier preventing goodness and worth to shine through. Forgetting is the act of encouragement, support, and reinforcement by which you assist the other person to rebuild, reconnect and re-establish a loving, caring, healthy relationship with you, others, and the world whereby gifts, talents, and skills are freely appreciated and shared.

Negative consequences of the absences of forgiving and forgetting
Continuously being hurt with pain and suffering going unresolved.
Unresolved guilt and remorse for offenses committed.
Chronically seeking revenge and paybacks from one another.
Being caught up in unresolved anger, animosity, and bitterness.
Defensive, self-protective, and distant behavior.
Blaming, negative and non-growth oriented behavior.
Being stuck in a battlefield stockpiled for future offensive attacks.
Being lost in a festering wound that never realizes the revitalization of healing.
Secretive and non-communicative behavior.
Fear over making a mistake or of having the mistake revealed.
Being overwhelmed by fear of failure, fear of rejection, fear of non-approval, low self-esteem, fear of conflict.
High stress.

In order to forgive and forget, you need to practice:
Letting go of past hurt and pain
Trusting in the goodness of mankind
Trusting in the goodness and mercy of God to take over for you
Letting go and letting God lead you during a hurtful time
Believing in God's infinite justice and wisdom
Letting go of fears for the future
Allowing yourself to be vulnerable to growth
Taking a risk
Letting go of hostility and resentment
Working out your anger
Reducing competition
Overlooking slight relapses or steps backward
Developing a personal spirituality
Developing an openness to the belief that people can change
Developing trust in others
Facing conflict head on, resolving it on the spot
Open, honest and assertive communication with others concerning hurts, pains, and offenses experienced
Seeking professional help when necessary to resolve the distance and coldness in a relationship
Recognizing your part or role in setting up hurtful experiences
Identifying and replacing the irrational beliefs that block your ability to forgive and forget

Lack of forgiving and forgetting in a relationship can result in:
Irreconcilable differences between people
Indifference toward one another
An emotional vacuum in which little or no emotions are shown or shared
Chronic attacks or angry outbursts
Addressing or interacting with one another disrespectfully
One-upmanship: competition as to who can out do whom in terms of eliciting sympathy, compassion, or understanding from outsiders
Seeking revenge from one another
Pitting the parties in the relationship against one another through coalitions and taking sides
Chronic recalling and reminding of past hurts and offenses
Suspicions about the others' motives, behavior, attitudes, beliefs
Chronic depression
Chronic hostility
Name calling, belittling and demeaning one another
Responding to present behavior as if they were past behavior
Unwillingness to change and/or unwillingness to seek the help necessary to change

I’m tired, so tired, it’s time to give it up
I’ve been draggin’ his memory around long enough
It’s weighin’ heavy like a stone around my neck
I’ve got to find a way to forgive and forget

Forgive and forget that’s what I’ve got to do
Forgive and forget all the hurt he’s put me through
I know the only way I’ll lay my burdens down to rest
Is if I can forgive and forget

To live in peace, be free of the past
I close my eyes and sweet-dreams is all that I ask
But if I die and peace has not come yet
Write on my stone, I tried to forgive and forget

Forgive and forget that’s what I’ve got to do
Forgive and forget all the hurt he’s put me through
I know the only way I’ll lay my burdens down to rest
Is if I can forgive and forget

Forgive and forget that’s what I’ve got to do
Forgive and forget all the hurt he’s put me through
I know the only way I’ll lay my burdens down to rest
Is if I can forgive and forget

Yeah, I know the only way I’ll lay my burdens down to rest
Is if I can forgive and forget